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Favourites #1

2012-02-23T16:13:00.001-08:00

Recently I have found my self spending a fair amount of time in the Beauty Guru part of youtube, and one of my favourite things that they do over there is 'favourites' videos, where, unsurprisingly, they talk about their favourite beauty products of that month.

This gave me the idea to start writing blog posts about my general favourite things of the month. But when I started to list ideas for my first post there were so many that it would be a very long and overwhelming post, so I'm going to make posts about individual things whenever I feel like it.

I like this way better because I think giving each thing it's own entry makes it even more special (:

So my favourite thing for today (mainly because it is the only one I have managed to take a photo of so far) is my new bunny lamp

I've been lusting after this one by Heico for a year or so now but it is waaayyyy too expensive for my little student budget. So when I saw this miniature version last week in Urban Outfitters for only £8.00 I was very excited, and my lovely mum bought it for me (:

It's so adorableee!! And therefore it is my current favourite.

Barnaby

2012-02-10T08:56:00.001-08:00

My TFIOS arrived!!

2012-01-12T14:42:00.000-08:00

New Year Revolution

2012-01-08T15:34:00.000-08:00

I've joined the channel 4 "Try Something New" New Year Revolution! I'm going to do a small mission every day throughout January, and this is where I'm gonna talk about it.
I started a little late, on the 4th day, but here are the things I've done so far:

The first mission I completed was to say "yes" to everything I was asked that day. I happened to have woken up feeling really dizzy and generally not good that day, so the only thing I was really asked to do was stay and bed all day and dry to feel better. As you can imagine this was pretty easy, and so towards the end of the day I decided to ask myself to do something. Going out in public by myself is something that I sometimes find really difficult, I can usually do it but it makes me feel anxious and stressed. So I decided to ask myself to go to the shops, for no particular reason, and try to be as relaxed about it as possible.
It actually went surprisingly well; I made myself walk slowly and take in the air and the things around me, not to get worked up if people were walking near me and not overtake them to try and get away from them, and not get angry when people in the shop were being slow or getting in the way, and it worked.
I ended up feeling way better from the fresh air and just getting out of the house, so far so good.

The second day required me to smile at everyone I saw. This challenge I found much more difficult. Partly because this is the kind of thing I find hard anyway, I generally tend to avoid eye contact with people, particularly strangers, but this challenge made me realise how many other people in the world feel this way. Almost all of the people I attempted to smile at wouldn't look up from the pavement, or even deliberately averted their eyes as soon as they accidentally met mine. Another reason this wasn't the easiest challenge was because, I was doing my smiling while I was walking into town to meet and friend, and then I got stood up. So I wasn't really in a smiling mood. (She made up for it with lots of lovely sweets and chocolate the next day (: )

Mission 3, "The chef's surprise", asked me to go to a restaurant and order something completely new from the menu. Being a poor student, and not a big fan of eating in public places, I decided to go for a cheaper, supermarket option. I already had plans to see Rachel that day, so she helped me with the verdict on our chosen exotic food: the dragon fruit..

I also bought dried goji berries, but I wasn't really a fan. Because of their colour I was expecting something like cranberries or raspberries, but they tasted more like weird raisins? Maybe I kind find a recipe to use them in.

Yesterday's mission was to try a new form of entertainment, and again I decided to go for something cheap and that didn't involve me going outside: tv. So I watched an episode of "Take Me Out", which is this weird dating tv show where poor single men are paraded around and judged by overly dressed up and fake tanned women. Not something I will be watching again. But it did make me think that I should check ITV player for things to watch, rather than just my usualy BBC iPlayer and 4od, so that's something.
I might not have been a great advocate for this revolution so far, but it is fun (: My profile is here.

Obligatory self indulgent "my life is so hard" bullshit post

2011-11-30T14:14:00.001-08:00

I feel so up and down right now, and today has been simultaneously pretty good and fucking terrible.
There aren't enough hours in the day to do everything that I feel like I need to, and yet I seem to spend the majority of my time sitting around doing nothing. Or nothing constructive.

I'm just so fucking tired.

Awesome Things

2011-11-28T13:57:00.001-08:00

Everything today has been kinda rubbish and negative, so instead of whining about that here are some really cool things:

I saw this tee shirt last weekend when out christmas shopping with my lovely friend Ellen (: It's from urban outfitters and is actually in the men's department, but I am completely in love with it. I wanted to BE Kelly Kapowski when I was growing up.
Christmas present to myself maybe?

While I was in Urban Outfitters I got myself this adorable (if slightly impractical) card holder(: aaaaand this bag from H&M..

The bag strap is this weird silver metal chain thing, but I'm thinking of changing it to something else, maybe a black ribbon?

Retail therapy is definitely the best way to deal with uni stress aha (:

Nostalgia - Baby Scout

2011-11-10T13:36:00.001-08:00

He's triying to bite the camera; they really freaked him out when he was a puppy for some reason.
(:

Some Good Advice

2011-10-22T13:21:00.000-07:00

source
"I used to feel so alone in the city.All those gazillions of people andthen me, on the outside. Becausehow do you meet a new person?I was very stumped by this for manyyears. And then I realized, you justsay, Hi. They may ignore you. Oryou may marry them. And thatpossibility is worth that one word."- Augusten Burroughs

work work work

2011-10-20T10:13:00.001-07:00

Thinking Sphere

2011-10-15T08:41:00.000-07:00

Olafur Eliasson

Life Things

2011-10-14T14:59:00.000-07:00

Hii Blog, So I've been pretty busy with life things lately, like moving out for the first time, and starting a degree in Fine Art, and turning twenty. Y'know.. no big deal. I've been here for over a month now, and I really like it (: I feel at home here. I love being a new place after living within the same 3 square miles for almost my whole life, and I feel happy and at home every time I come back to my room.

This is my desk, as it is right now, with all my photos up on the wall above it (:It was a little weirder than I thought it would be at first, to be away from home and my family. Everything seemed really draining in the first few weeks, and I was surprised to find myself wanting to visit home after only three weeks. Even now, its Friday night, and almost everyone I know here has gone home for the weekend, and I'm torn between going too or staying here alone. It's not much trouble, or money, for me to go. I don't really want to spend the weekend alone. But on the other hand, I have work to do here, but mostly I just feel like I shouldn't go home. I don't want to admit to my family, or myself, that I miss home more than I thought I would.

On a happier note, I really love my course. The people who work around me, and on the course in general have been so friendly to me and are really interesting people. Having my own space to work has been amazing too.

Something I'm working on right now with recycled paper. So yeah, byyee Blog (:

From Tumblr

2011-10-06T03:01:00.001-07:00

“Your life is not an episode of Skins. Things will never look quite as good as they do in a faded, sun - drenched Polaroid; your days are not an editorial from Lula. Your life is not a Sofia Coppola movie, or a Chuck Palahniuk novel, or a Charles Bukowski poem. Grace Coddington isn’t your creative director. Bon Iver and Joy Division don’t play softly in the background at appropriate moments. Your hysterical teenage diary isn’t a work of art. Your room probably isn’t Selby material. Your life isn’t a Tumblr screencap. Every word that comes out of your mouth will not be beautiful and poignant, infinitely quotable. Your pain will not be pretty. Crying till you vomit is always shit. You cannot romanticize hurt. Or sadness.Or loneliness. You will have homework, and hangovers and bad hair days. The train being late won’t lead to any fateful encounters, it will make you late. Sometimes your work will suck. Sometimes you will suck. Far too often, everything will suck - and not in a Wes Anderson kind of way. And there is no divine consolation - only the knowledge that we will hopefully experience the full spectrum - and that sometimes, just sometimes, life will feel like a Coppola film.”

Positive Pranking

2011-08-21T04:22:00.000-07:00

I recently found these two videos while re-watching old Vlogbrothers videos

It reminds me of some of the things Rachel wanted to do for her 'appreciation' project, specifically the tasks in the "Random acts of kindness" book like "Plant a flower in someone's garden", which is the one that I liked most.
This is something that I really want to do, but like John Green I'd be really nervous to actually go right up to peoples doors in case the opened them before I got the chance to run away, and we don't have the same kind of "mailboxes" here for me to TP.
But "planting" the lollies in people's gardens, or even public land is such a cute idea, and easier to do, so maybe I'll try that one.

Kyeok Kim

2011-08-14T05:54:00.001-07:00

Soap Rings

Part of Korean artist's Jewellery as Second Skin series. As you wash your hands, the ring slowly disappears leaving your hands smelling like a drop of perfume.
“… a sensory experience [that becomes] an unconscious ornament.”

A Haiku About Spoons:

2011-06-30T08:20:00.001-07:00

Spoon spoon spoon spoon spoon
Spoon spoon spoon spoon spoon spoon spoon
Spoon spoon spoon spoon spoon.

All My Blogs:

2011-06-19T14:53:00.000-07:00

My Tumblr - For my excessive image hoarding and inspiration.
My Joint Tumblr between Kieran & I, which we use to show each other cute and funny things, (It's mainly pictures of cats.)
My Poetry Blog - a collection of poems that I like
My Pinterest Boards, Although this is not technecally a blog I feel it belongs here. A collection of assorted ideas and images I like.
My Last.fm which should also be included, and finally
My Flickr, which I mainly use for college.

- Blogs to create in the future:
Things I see on the floor/in the street
My own work - serious art work or just doodles? or both?
Lists - submission?
Photos of Strangers

How to feel miserable as an artist

2011-06-03T03:29:00.000-07:00

(or, what not to do. Underline any that currently apply.)

1. Constantly compare yourself to other artists.

2. Talk to your family about what you do and expect them to cheer you on.

3. Base the success of your entire career on one project.

4. Stick with what you know.

5. Undervalue your expertise.

6. Let money dictate what you do.

7. Bow to societal pressures.

8. Only do work your family would love.

9. Do whatever the client/customer/gallery owner/patron/investor asks.

10. Set unachievable/overwhelming goals. To be accomplished by tomorrow.

Found here.

Yellow

2011-05-23T02:15:00.001-07:00

David Harsent

2011-04-27T09:43:00.000-07:00

Spatchcock

As I entered, she had her pinking shears to the backbone,
having dropped the gizzard into the kitchen bin,
and barely looked over her shoulder to see who it was

when I gave the door a little back-heel
then ferreted round in the fridge for an ice-cold Coors
before slipping up from behind to cop a feel.

Another hot day in September, and that the cause
of her half-baked look, brought on
by lying bare-assed in the garden all afternoon,

a flush coming off her, the veins so close to the skin
I could trace the flow like sap, could tongue-up the ooze
of sweat at the nape of her neck: and this the real

taste of her, like nothing before, like nothing I ever knew.
You have to go hard at it, either side of the spine,
all the time bearing down against the sinew,

then lift the long bone entire and get both hands
into the cut, knuckle to knuckle, and draw
the carcass apart, and press, till you hear the breastbone crack.

Looked at like that it’s roadkill, flat on its back,
sprung ribcage, legs akimbo, red side up, and sends
a message (you might guess) about life lived in the raw.

So then it’s a matter of taste: herb-butter under the slack
of the breast, perhaps, or a tart marinade,
to flatter and blend, spread thinly and rubbed well in.

She favoured the latter—that and a saltire of thin
skewers driven aslant from thigh to neck,
which might, indeed, have said something about her mood.

That done, she stripped off, gathering the oils and the balm
she’d need for however long the thing would take,
and went back to her place in the sun. It did no harm,

I suppose, to watch from an upstairs window: a hawk’s-
eye-view as she lay there timing the turn
(face-up till you tingle, then flip) to brown but not to burn.

The marks of the griddle, the saltire, the subtle flux…
We ate it with lima beans and picked the bones,
after which we took to bed a bottle of bright Sancerre

and I held her down as I’d held her down before,
working her hot-spots with a certain caution and care
as she told me not here…or here…but there…and there.

I left her flat on her back—flat out and shedding a glow,
or so I like to think, as I slipped downstairs
and lifted, from a peg-board beside the hob,

her mother’s (or grandmother’s) longhand note on how
to spatchcock a chicken, or guinea, or quail, or squab,
or sparrow, even, with emphasis on that ‘crack’;

and lifted, as well, before I lifted the latch,
myrtle, borage, dill, marjoram, tarragon, sumac,
all named and tagged, in a customized cardboard box.

Date a Girl Who Reads

2011-04-23T08:58:00.000-07:00

Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.

by Rosemarie Urquico

UO

2011-04-15T06:29:00.000-07:00

Just ordered this velvet trim blazer from the Urban Outfitters sale:

excited now (:

Growth

2011-04-14T15:07:00.000-07:00

A little bit of creativity that came from 'getting lots of rest', and also 'not forcing it'. I was researching the work of a local tattoo artist, I've always wanted to get a tattoo on this wrist to symbolise change and growth and beauty, and suddenly got this idea.

I think this also counts for 'writing down ideas', even if it is a drawing.

29 ways to stay creative

2011-04-14T06:33:00.000-07:00

Make lists

Carry a notebook everywhere

Try free writing

Get away from the computer

Quit beating yourself up

Take breaks

Sing in the shower

Drink coffee

Listen to new music

Be open

Surround yourself with creative people

Get Feedback

Collaborate

Don't give up

Practice, practice, practice

Allow yourself to make mistakes

Go somewhere new

Count your blessings

Get lots of rest

Take risks

Break the rules

Don't force it

Read a page of the dictionary

Create a framework

Stop trying to be someone else's perfect

Got an idea? Write it down

Clean your workspace

Have fun

Finish something

- http://paulzii.tumblr.com/

I've always used my tumblr for creative inspiration, not really specific ideas, but looking at other people's work puts me in a creative mood. But I found this list today so I'm gonna try and do all of these over the next week or so, probably starting with 'get lots of rest' because I'm ill, and document it on this blog. Perfect timing as I'm supposed to be in the middle of my final major project right now, but I've hardly done anything yet :/

Things I don't like at the moment:

2011-03-22T13:38:00.000-07:00

blue biros

the state of my room

college

my hair

most of my clothes

still not being able to drive

yoghurt

Things I like at the moment:

2011-03-22T13:28:00.000-07:00

watercolour paints

my red espadrilles

mocha frappuccinos

bean sprouts

Kieran's old green and black stripy jumper

new ELF make-up

the current weather

post its

mini eggs

Transience

2011-03-16T04:49:00.001-07:00

Work for college, which I just handed in yesterday (:

True love never dies.

2011-03-16T04:36:00.000-07:00

1 AM creativity

2011-02-24T17:14:00.001-08:00

Some things I would like to eventually achieve

2011-02-24T16:15:00.000-08:00

Take photos of all my clothes so that I can plan outfits without having to get them all out.

Fix my sewing machine (or get a new one) and make more clothes myself.

Make and sell something on Etsy.

Draw more.

Complete my photo wall.

Read '14000 Things to be Happy About', which I just ordered.

"I took a personal day, just wanted to finish up some creative projects I've been working on around here."

2011-01-27T14:07:00.000-08:00

lovelovelovin

2011-01-17T13:32:00.001-08:00

Follow my blog with bloglovin

ELLE

2010-12-28T04:23:00.000-08:00

Life and practicality

2010-10-18T04:10:00.000-07:00

I don't want to write my personal statement today.

I want to take photos of cute little things in my room
and paint pictures of my boyfriends eyes and lips and face and hands
and draw huge pictures for my room of my favourite disney characters, Alice and Peter
and go and look round the charity shops, and buy new magazines and make up
and practice watercolour painting
and mess around with my hair, and try on old clothes I used to love
and bake cakes and cookies and yummy things
and sew things out of all the scraps of fabric lying around my room
and go and buy buttons and bows and new pair of shoes...

But it was due in on friday, and it's kind of important.

Puerto Pollença

2010-10-18T02:10:00.000-07:00

I love it when I get paint on my hands & then I go out and people look at it funny.

2010-04-25T14:19:00.000-07:00

Things that remind me of you #1:

2010-04-21T13:50:00.000-07:00

anything that gets broken & needs sewing.
grey hoodies.
buttons.
instant coffee.
trains.
pictures of footprints?
Mememolly.
having to do any kind of maths.
cucumber.
Twitter.
aeroplanes.
Nutella.
dried cranberries.
star shaped pastry.
Hundreds & thousands (/ Thousands & Millions).
Dance Music.
Speaking Italian.
Asofterworld.
Being awake after 2 AM.
Matilda / Speedboats

I've always had a thing about teeth

2010-04-21T13:35:00.001-07:00

2010-04-14T16:11:00.001-07:00

One of my ultimate aims in life is to be able to wake up in the morning, & walk into a wardrobe that has at least four beautiful, perfect outfits for me to choose from for every possible occasion imaginable.

I'm shallow, whatever.

2010-03-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

He would write the songs, & I would tremble at his hands

2010-03-27T16:09:00.000-07:00

Where do you draw the line between selflessness and self-deprecation?

(L)

2010-03-14T09:13:00.000-07:00

procrastination

2010-03-11T14:08:00.000-08:00

so far today, the things I have done instead of my english essay include:

staring blankly at my facebook newsfeed.
finding good music.
re-reading large chuncks of the book I am studying that are irrelevant.
dailyboothing - twice.
talking to my boyfriend about how much I don't want to be writing my essay.
playing with my dog.
trying to sneakily watch the last five minutes of Greys Anatomy.
watching my fish for an extended period of time.
Eating a cream egg.
This.

& suddenly you're deep enough to lay your armour down

2010-03-10T15:12:00.001-08:00

I always thought that happiness was either something you had, or something you didn't. If you weren't happy than that was it, there was nothing you could do about it.
This is probably why I have been unhappy for most of my life.

But today I realised, that happiness takes motivation, it takes effort. Nothing is ever going to be perfect & you can't expect it all to fall into place for you.
Sometimes, you have to try to be happy, but it's worth it.

please

2010-03-08T15:40:00.000-08:00

"..something that comes from the roots of a painter's soul,"

2010-01-27T03:41:00.000-08:00

wow.

Sunday

2010-01-17T07:11:00.000-08:00

Today, I made this:

Just to remind myself.

More snow

2010-01-11T07:52:00.001-08:00

Just bought this coat

2010-01-11T07:49:00.001-08:00

mmm (:

The end of Ten

2010-01-02T07:24:00.000-08:00

OH it was so sad.
When he was on the floor, getting up, after just sending the time lords back & those four knocks on the glass ... my heart stopped for a second.
& saying goodbye to Rose!
& then just before the regeneration when he says "I don't want to go".

I'm actually watching his first episode now, the christmas special from 2005, "The christmas invation"
SO sad.

Redbull gives you wiiiiiiiiings

2010-01-01T15:02:00.000-08:00

SO want these

Either silver or white. Buuuuuut I can't anywhere near afford a new pair, & can't find any second hand ones for sale ):

Inside all of us...

2009-12-30T15:21:00.000-08:00

Today my lovely boyfriend took me to the cinema to see Where the While Things Are (:
I've been waiting to see it for ages & it was absolutely brilliant, every second of it.
y'know when something is so perfect, as if it came right out of yourself, that it makes you just ache.

There were a lot of kids there, but I definitely wouldn't call it a kids' film. It's intense & incredibly emotional. But also amazingly clever how the writers and director have managed to turn a simple, but beautiful, children's picture book into this deep, emotional story about a lonely, angry child & the way he see the world, & ultimately how he comes to understand how his behaviour effects the people he loves, like his mother, through watching Carol.
It was weird too, but in a good way, & kind of in a scary way, like when Carol breaks off Douglas' arm.
I need to watch it again, to take everything in properly. I could have watched it again right after it finished (: But I guess I'll have to wait until it comes out on DVD!

Snow

2009-12-20T13:30:00.001-08:00

Today I have had a lovely day;

2009-12-13T13:05:00.000-08:00

I finished my english coursework
had a nice, long bath
moved the lamp in my room to a better place
had my first glass of Bailey's of the season
decorated the christmas tree
made a very pretty rose out of a piece of silver ribbon
walked the dog
and last night I had a nice, funny dream about making custard for my boyfriend (:

I'd rather be a jerk and lay around

2009-12-06T06:35:00.000-08:00

I've just finally finished sorting out all the music on my laptop; feels good (:
.. even though I ought to be doing my buddhism essay or art coursework :/

my dreams are infected with words you used to say

2009-12-04T03:09:00.000-08:00

I'm sorting all the files on my computer, & I found these little pictures that I used to use as my msn DPs. These are just my favourite ones. Cute, aren't they (:
Sorry I can't credit any of these, they're just so old I have no idea where I got them from :/

pllllease? >.<

2009-12-01T02:42:00.000-08:00

I reeeeally want this Olympus PEN E-P1.
it's so beautiful (: and also wayyy too expensive for me.

"Goodnight, my hetero heroine"

2009-11-29T07:49:00.000-08:00

This weekend I absolutely fell in love with this film. & with Kat Dennings.

Norah: Nothing! You're just...you're ridiculous.

Nick: You don't even know me.

Norah: I know you, I know your make.

Nick: My make?

Norah: You're an emo punk bandboy and you're obsessed with Tris. They could make action figures out of you - drummer not included.

Nick: It's funny that Tris never mentioned you considering what good friends you are, but she did mention some frigid jealous jap who was completely jealous of her and who was a complete bitch.

Norah: Oh, jealous?!?

Nick: Yeah, and so now I think I know exactly who she was referring to.

Norah: Let's dance, douchebag!

Nick: OK, sweetheart, you think you have something...

[Norah chops Nick in the throat]

Norah: I AM NOT JEALOUS!!

an awful lot of running to do

2009-11-26T05:21:00.000-08:00

!!!

I HAVE to have this

inspiration (L)(L)(L)(L)

2009-11-26T03:34:00.000-08:00

my favourite tumblr posts to date:

tumblrrrawWWRRRRRrr

11:46 AM

2009-11-15T03:46:00.000-08:00

Now I'm going to try and actually do something constructive with my day.

P.S..

2009-11-09T13:20:00.001-08:00

these are awesome too

Dear Father Christmas

2009-11-09T09:23:00.001-08:00

This year I have been (sort of) very good, & I would please like please:

ta, love love kiss kiss

Things I have missed in the past year:

2009-10-29T03:48:00.000-07:00

1. Having time to read for pleasure.
2. Candyfloss.
3. A friend, & the weird stuff we used to talk about & coffee the special way she makes it.
4. The hoodie given to me by an old friend which I lost two summers ago.
5. A time when things weren't good, but they were simpler because I didn't care about anything & had nothing to lose - Only in breif moments of weakness.
6. The Ocean.
7. Being thinner, & having more control over my compulsive comfort eating.
8. Having more friends.
9. The red checker shoes from Zara that my mum throw away last year.
10. You, every single second that I'm not with you.

I'm a loser & a user so I don't need no accuser

2009-10-25T03:19:00.000-07:00

went to see Green Day on Friday at the O2 with Kieran & his parents.
SO AWESOME.
I have a new found love for them.

Bloggin' with my dog

2009-10-24T13:50:00.000-07:00

CATcher in the rye

2009-10-19T14:46:00.001-07:00

how can you get anything done with a grumpy cat on your notes?

dear self, one week ago,

2009-10-18T09:29:00.000-07:00

DO YOUR ENGLISH COURSEWORK!!
otherwise, you will have to do it next Sunday & then you will realise its harder than you thought & you don't actually have enough time before its due in on Tuesday.

|:

Recipe for the perfect party

2009-09-23T01:19:00.000-07:00

Ingredients:
1 House, minus parents
1 Garden
1 Bonfire, contained in fire pit
40m or so of fairy lights
3 big, homemade cakes
100 fairy cakes
several crates of beer
even more crates of cider
a few bottles of vodka
a few bottles of sambuca
40+ guests
1 dog wearing a bow tie
& 1 Birthday Girl (:

Method:
Pour all ingredients into one night & mix well,
enjoy!

Bunnieeeezzz

2009-09-20T10:17:00.000-07:00

I like bunnies (:

(: (: (: (:

2009-09-13T12:06:00.000-07:00

A lot of the things I've posted lately have been kind of negative. So, here are some positive things:

My timetable for this year is lovely, I have no full days, and no lessons at all on wednesdays.

I had a lovely weekend with Kieran: we went for a walk in the sunshine on saturday & found this really sweet, quiet spot. We went to his house & hung out with the chickens in the garden. We went to blockbuster & rented some films to watch. Then we got into into bed and ate pick'n'mix while we watched them. & then he decided not to go to band practice today (I gave him my cold) so we didn't have to get up until late.

I've caught up with the two main projects for school that I was behind on.

I am eating Phish Food.

& It's two weeks until my birthday! I'm going to be eighteen which is completely ridiculous, I deffinately don't feel that old. & I'm getting driving lessons as my presents which is scary & exciting. Also, my birthday is on a saturday, which means that I can have my party on my actual birthday.

Happy dayssss (:

This is what I am wearing today:

2009-09-09T04:58:00.000-07:00

Oh..

2009-09-05T07:08:00.002-07:00

Reading was good by the way, not as good as I thought it would be, but still coool.
I took a disposable camera but I lost after taking about ten pictures, so that kinda sucked. aha

Pure Land, Zen, Blah blah whatever.

2009-09-05T07:07:00.000-07:00

Today, Tumblr is proving to be much more interesting than "the main features of Mahayana Buddhism in Vietnam" |:

Don't get offended if I seem absent minded, I get tongue-tied

2009-08-26T00:32:00.000-07:00

Today I am going to reading.

I've only half packed aha :/ ohh why do I always leave everything until the last minute?
I also haven't finished all the work for school I need to do. I get back from reading on Monday, & go back to school on Thursday, so I won't have much time when I get back either.

Oh well, it'll be fine.

):

2009-08-23T14:45:00.001-07:00

I have far too much to possibly do.

it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year..

2009-08-22T01:55:00.000-07:00

I just had the end of 'The Shining' ruined for me by watching Friends |:

my shoulders are square enough thankyou!

2009-08-21T13:55:00.000-07:00

I can't find a nice blazer anywhereee that doesn't have whopping great shoulder pads.
I would also like a military style jacket, y'know the type with gold braiding & buttons.
aaand there's a lovely 'ripped effect jumer' from asos that was in grazia this week.
I'm looking for a chunky tan leather belt.
A new pair of ankle boots. & a pair of brouges.
Some ripped & bleached skinnies.
There's also a pair of pink slouchy skinnies in Uniqlo I would like.

And a dress for my birthday party >.<

:/

2009-08-19T01:34:00.000-07:00

So, I've been painting more snails...

I got up to number 13, & the day after that it rained. So I got all excited to see all the snails come out again, but they didn't.
Since then, I've only found one numbered snail. Well .. it was actually the empty shell of number twelve.

Needless to say I've stopped painting them now.

Recent additions to my wardrobe

2009-08-09T03:45:00.000-07:00

last week I went shopping & this is what I bought:

These denim shorts, which I've been living in, are from topshop.
The grey t shirt it from H&M.

I got these trousers in the Zara sale. They're reallyyyy long even for my 5"11 self, but I think they look nice & relaxed rolled up.

& finally, I got these tiny tiny silver hotpants at Sonisphere to wear to the space-themed FMC party, & although I can't see any suitable ocassions in the near future, I'm keeping them in my wardrobe just in case (:

I’ll give you bread and barley corns

2009-08-06T04:11:00.000-07:00

From today, I am going to number the snails in my garden. This is number one.

sonispherrrrrre

2009-08-04T13:53:00.000-07:00

was awesome (:

I was expecting to be scared of all the metal heads & wanting to go home the whole time, but everyone there was lovely & the whole atmosphere was nice & friendly.
We saw basically all the bands on the two main stages (everyone except bjorn again, feeder, & some band that filled in for coheed & cambria) so I'm totally shattered now even though I've been back for nearly two whole days.
The two headliners, Linkin Park & Metallica were amazing obviously. I also loved Lamb of God (yeah, seriously) & Machine head because they both got the crowds to go really crazy, & we were right up the front the whole time (:
Airborne were one of my favourites too because the lead singer wanted to give everyone a really good show because it was raining, so he climbed up one of the lighting tower things to the side of the stage & all security were trying to get him to come down (: he was cool.

The camping was cool too. We were in the smallest campsite, because we came a day early so we got a nice spot & stuff. But then the next day when more people came, we came back from the arena to find that our little camp had literally been invaded by northern pirates, so we moved in with our lovely neighbours who had plenty of room for our tent (:
On the last night all the noisiest and weirdest people from out field came to hang out in our camp & were still there when he left in the morning.
We met an Australian boy who almost got the shit kicked out of him for insulting Nine Inch Nails, a guy called Rav who had been screamed everything he wanted to say all night, & some lovely Vikings from surrey.

I'm already looking forward to going next year (:

Inside all of us is a Wild Thing

2009-07-23T14:35:00.000-07:00

Last night I went to see Harry Potter & the half blood prince for the second time - I need to calm down before I even begin to talk about it again - & I saw a trailer for "where the wild things are".
I recognised the name straight away & knew it was a famous book, although I've never read it. It was only when I came to look it up later that I found out that it's a children's picture book, with only ten sentences, which has made me even more excited about seeing the film.

I don't know if it's just because it's a story about a strange & lonely child, something that I once was, but something about the trailer stirs up all this emotion in me. I just think it's absolutely beautiful.

Well...

2009-07-21T01:01:00.001-07:00

It's still raining |:

The Fourth Plinth

2009-07-12T03:42:00.000-07:00

I just applied to take part in Antony Gormley's project, One & Other.
He's usually a sculptor, but he is running this project where every hour, for twentyfour hours a day, for a hundred days, a different person stands on the fourth plinth in trafalgar square, as art.
The idea is that it is a 'living monument' of the people in the UK today.

Some of the people that have been on so far have been supporting charities or important causes, but other people just go on & do silly things (: I think if I got chosen I would do origami & give them out to the people wathcing.

GRAZIA

2009-07-04T15:39:00.000-07:00

I saw this dress in a magazine a few weeks ago & still just can't stop thinking about it. Everytime I pick up the magazine to flick through it again, which I often do, my heart just melts when I turn to the page.
It's from pretaportobello.com, which I hadn't heard of until I found this, & costs sixtyfive pounds meaning that it will not be appearing in my wardrobe any time soon ):

I really want some of these Jonnhy loves Rosie hair pins too. I'm trying to grow my hair out at the moment, & I've always thought that flowers look best in long hair (:

I think I have the same glasses as Hank Green <3

2009-07-04T14:44:00.001-07:00

Awesome.

Shoo-be-doo-be-doo-wop-waa

2009-07-02T09:48:00.000-07:00

The other day I had this random thought about a cartoon called Angela Anaconda that I used to watch when I was a kid. I have no idea what triggered it but I just suddenly remebered it & that I really liked it. I asked Kieran but he said he'd never heard of it.
It's about this girl called Angela Anaconda, funnily enough, who has a friend called Gina who has these awesome glasses & is chubby & always talks about food, & a friend called Johnny who's italian american & plays hockey I think? & then also there's a boy called Gordy who is skinny & geeky & has asthma. She has a girl dog called King who wears a red bandana & her dad calls her 'Angel Wings', & she's just generally pretty awesome. The whole show is about how there's this stuck up girl called Anette that pretends to be french but isn't really & Angela doesn't like her & usually manages to show her up in some way.

So Kieran & I were wathcing Ruby Gloom on one of the only kids tv channels I can get, Pop Girl, & this advert came on saying that they were gonna start playing Angela Anaconda. Obviously the first thing I did was find it on Tv guide & series link it.
I think the reason I've always loved it is because its not like your usual cartoon, it's like half cartoon & half .. they're almost black & white photos? It's awesome. (:

burgercake?!

2009-06-30T15:06:00.001-07:00

Here's the cake that Kieran & I actually ended up making together for the threadcakes competition. The login feature & entry forms on the website were only created yesterday so I've made an account but haven't actually submitted my entry yet.
You have to write your "cake story" & I'm having some trouble, I don't want it to be long & boring, but trying to be funny & charasmatic isn't really working for me.

I like this picture. Even if my hair is a mess.
aha

Threadcakes

2009-06-24T02:28:00.000-07:00

So, I've been thinking about possible entries for the threadcakes competition, just flicking through the current threadless shirts for inspiration & these are the one's I've found so far:

This one would be pretty easy. Just have to make a tower of cake & then carve a little pointy bit on top, cover in fondant & cut the red bits out of colours fondant and stick them on, & then pipe on the face.
& then for the cookie, I could either use and actual cookie, or just a bit of round cake..
I don't know about the arms & legs though?

This is actually the back of a t shirt (one that is currently waiting in my virtual threadless basket until I can afford it) called AV. So for this I would just make a square cake, ice it with black fondant or royal icing & then pipe all the detail on I 'spose. It would be fiddley and take a lot of time but I think I could do it. Possible a bit boring though? I'm not sure..

This one's called 'deforstation', & out of all of them I think this would probably be the easiest. A green cake with half tiny little trees & half just little black dots. I could easily make tiny trees out of that icing that comes in blocks of four colours? I can't remember what its called on the box. Buuuuutttt again, it might be kinda boring?

fiiiiinally, the last one in my current list. It caight my attention because a burger is essentially the same shape as a cake. meaning I could just make a few cakes, layer them, & then cut a small bit out where the mouth is open. all the tomatoes & lettuce & also the tongue I can make out of icing. I don't know about the teeth though?

The competition closes on the 1st of July I think? Which means I've got a week. So .. wish me luck? (:

we're going onn a bearrrr hunt...

2009-06-20T01:37:00.000-07:00

Today is westmill. Which means camping. Which means that bear hunt song is in my head ahaa.
I didn't actually know westmill was this weekend until a few days ago, which means I haven't had any time to panic about it much, so I'm actually quite looking forward to it.
A good was of easing myself into the whole festival season before Sonisphere and Reading. :/

So yeah, heading off into the wilderness (kinda) for a weekend. Byyeeeeeee (:

more geeky stuff

2009-06-17T03:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I got my reading list for english, I get to pick any two of these to do my coursework on:

Life of Pi - Yann Martel
About a Boy - Nick Hornby
French Lieutenant's Woman - John Fowles
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest - Ken Kesey
God of Small Things - Arundhati Ray
Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis de Bernieres
The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Attwood
1984 - George Orwell
Tess of the D'urbevilles - Thomas Hardy
Lady Windermere's Fan - Oscar Wilde
The Curious Case of Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde - Robert Louis Stevenson
Under Milk Wood - Dylan Thomas
Pride & Prejudice - Jane Austen
Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Salinger
Brighton Rock - Graham Greene
Animal Farm - George Orwell
Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
Slaughter House 5 - Kurt Vonnengut Jnr
First World War Poetry
The Barrytown Trilogy - Roddy Doyle
The Color Purple - Alice Walker

Out of those I've only read a few; Pride & Prejudice, Catcher in the Rye & Animal Farm.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to pick but I'm excitedddd (:
Probably Catcher in the Rye, because it's one of my favourites, But I don't know...

Geek Chic

2009-06-11T11:02:00.000-07:00

Today I went to the optitions & had my first everrrr eye test.
It's weird, all the stuff they make you do. "read this.. look at this light .. can you see the green or the red clearer?.. let my shine this right in your eyes.. is the circle clearer now, or now?.."
But anyway, even though I went because of headaches while reading & on the computer, she said that we most likley caused by stress and there was nothing she could do ( |: ) but that I needed glasses for long distance. Driving, telly, school, stuff like that.

So, after trying on practically every pair of designer glasses in the shop, I ended up going with the first pair I tried on which also happened to be one of the cheapest pairs in the shop aha.
So yeah .. going to pick them up in two weeks :/

Forever thine, forever mine, forever ours.

2009-06-07T05:43:00.000-07:00

This morning I watched the Sex in the City movie. My mum went to see it when it came out in the cinema, so even though I'd never seen it I knew what happened, but it was still a beautiful film.

One of the reoccuring ideas throughout the films, is love letters. Near the begining of the film when Carrie & Big are in bed together, Carrie is reading a copy of "Love letters of Great Men" & reads some of them aloud to Big including a letter by Beethoven to his "immortal beloved".
After watching the films, the idea of love letters stayed with me & I went on amazon to see if I could find the book, thinking in the back of my mind that the chick-flick had sparked some kind of unique, romantic notion is me. However, scrolling down the page, I saw this:

In a way, it almost ruined it for me. But I'm still going to buy the book.

owowowowowwww

2009-06-07T05:35:00.000-07:00

I think I've broken my toe. Lovley.
Well ... seeing as I can't walk. there goes any plans I might have had for today.

I don't care if I'm being a baby, I don't care if it's not even broken.
It really frickin' hurts.

I'm gonna dance like nobodys watchin', I'm gonna sing like no ones listenin'..

2009-06-06T09:47:00.000-07:00

I drew this yesterday when I was having coffee with Jane and we were discussing plans for Kieran's birthday cake. Which I have yet to practice making. I kinda wish I hadn't drawn myself so much taller than him :/ aha. & that I'd made us look like more of a couple, but these things don't occur to you when you're just absent-mindedly doodling, do they?

I also wish my hair looked this good in real life.

sighhh

2009-06-06T03:09:00.000-07:00

Today, I am starting on the impossible task of clearing out my room. & I don't just mean tidying, I mean actually throwing stuff away and making space |:
It's going to be a lot harder than it sounds. I mean, this is what it currently looks like:& that doesn't even do it justice.

difficult days

2009-06-04T23:51:00.000-07:00

I keep feeling really light headed & getting head aches & my eyes keep hurting and going out of focus. My mum thinks it's because I look at the computer screen too much & told me not to go on my laptop for a while. I didn't aaaall day yesterday & seeing as I had nothing else to do it was a challenge. I think it did help a bit, but I've snuck back on for five minutes.

Yesterday wasn't a good day; stress & anxiety getting to me again. I had to answer the door to the postman while I was crying, aha. But today I feel a bit better.

I'm going to meet Jane in a few hours for coffee to discuss plans for Kieran's birthday cake, & also probably the general state of affairs. As much as I'm looking forward to it, I'm worried about leaving the house for the first time in three days.

untitled

2009-06-03T11:01:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I feel like there's something wrong with me, like I can't feel things properly.
Everything comes all at once in swirls of colours, mixing together into sludge.
I feel emotionally stunted. & emotionally drained.

freedom (:

2009-06-02T13:13:00.000-07:00

fiiiiiinally all my exams are over and I have a week & a half of long empty days. lovelyyyy (: So I can actually get around to crossing things off my to-do list:

Decide what I'm going to make for Kieran's birthday cake, & practice it.
Do some sketches & stuff, & then paint Kieran's birthday portrait thing.
Make his other present (: & buy a few extra things for him.
Catch up with some friends, like Pi.
Clear out my junk ): I'm starting to worry that Kieran might leave me if I don't do it, or at least stop coming to my house.
Send off the negatives from my Diana to be made into prints.
Get some 35mm black & white film for the old SLR that my dad gave me.
Take the portaits of my brothers & I that my mum wants for the living room.
Go shopping!!
Catch up on reading. I've got tonnnnss to get through.
Finish off the two paintings that have been hanging around in my room for months.
Get my provisional driving liscence.
Finish my wall - I think I might have enough bits & pieces waiting around.
Go to the Royal Academy summer exhibition
Do something nice for Russell, I'm not sure what yet.
Either fix my sewing machine, or get a new one.
Upload some CDs that have been lying around for a while & give them back to Kieran.
Teach scout to roll over.

& probably some other things .. :/
lots to do, ahaa

Revision fail

2009-06-01T05:59:00.000-07:00

Reading & writing is making my eyes go all fuzzy & my head hurt. I think I need glasses.
Tomorrow, I have a three hour exam, in which I will have to answer four two-part essay questions.
I have one and a half folders, so full I can bearly turn the pages, still to revise.

fail.